One of my children’s favorite songs is called “Rainbows over Waimea.” It’s about the beauty of a town on the northern side of the Big Island of Hawaii. Waimea is a town about 20 minutes from where I am living in Honoka’a, HI. Since I have arrived here almost two months ago, I have witnessed at least 10 rainbows over Waimea. This is one way Spirit speaks to me: through songs, serendipitous moments, subtle guidance, gentle nudges, etc. I know I’m in the right place.
Not only have I seen the handful of physical rainbows, I have met a handful of people who are just as beautiful and magical. They are my true “Rainbows over Waimea.”
A few days after arriving, an elderly Hawaiian woman came to my door with a small welcome gift. She explained she is ready to pass her spiritual knowledge on to someone before she is too old to do it and that she would be back in 30 min. for my first lesson! She returned to lead me and my roommate out to a small field behind our apartment. From here, our lesson on the Aloha began.
“Aloha” is referring to the “ha,” the breath of life. She had us breathe and connect with the breath. Then she shared her most prized life lessons and blessed us with her beautiful teaching. She taught us to walk softly and listen to the land and the plants. She taught me to learn to calm my inner winds and reaffirmed that my Hawaiian name is truly Kamakani, the wind, just as I was fondly named earlier this year by my friend on the mainland. I must learn to calm my winds from a storm down to a gentle breeze. She also taught us to call on the Light every day. She is surely a rainbow.
A week later, I was sitting outside a coffee shop in Waimea doing some writing and a sweet elderly man walked by. I noticed the light in his eyes, so when he came back a few minutes later, I struck up a conversation. “Bob” pulled up a chair and talked with us for a while. That led to two separate days of wonderful learning from a spry 96 year old! He shared his life wisdom with me and I will cherish it. One lesson from him was to take out all the “maybes” in life and just stick to your yes or your no. Cut out all the middle ground and either do things all the way or don’t do it and stop doing things you don’t really want to do. His second secret to a good long life is to always be optimistic! He was the sharpest and healthiest man of that age I have ever seen, still driving around and living on his own. What a rainbow he is!
There are many others here who have appeared and shared their light with me, but this last one I will mention still has me in awe. The day I met him, it was pouring rain. I had been spending quite a bit of time with a friend who is interested in investing time and resources into a local goat dairy and in creating an ecovillage here in Hawaii. At the same time, I had given a local lady a BodyTalk session and afterwards she explained that she and her husband were also interested in it, so we should talk more. When we went to their house, we had no idea what was going to ensue. These two turned out to be a double rainbow couple! The husband is involved with native peoples and government agencies to bring solutions and peace to our world’s most difficult problems. His name is M. Kalani Souza, a powerful advocate for restoring relationships, community, environmental sustainability, and sanity to the world. We sat under his teaching, under his “ha,” (breath), under his beautiful light, for an hour feeling we had just been gifted the grandest gift imaginable. It was very fitting that it was my friend’s birthday that day too. The wife took us on a tour of their property, a model for sustainable living and community life. Two years ago I had begun seeing visions of what Kalani spoke of, and I hope to be part of bringing these things to fruition with the work that I do also.
My heart is full. The rain of blessings is pouring down on me, and the rainbows keep showing up. They are signs and reminders that I’m on the right path, and that I am loved deeply by God, the Source of my life.
May you also see rainbows today and be blessed.
Risk Quotient (RQ): A term basically referring to your ability to take what you know and make educated decisions. It is based on a person’s knowledge and confidence in decision making.
Spiritual Risk Quotient (SRQ): My term for the ability to take what you know, in combination with your spiritual guidance, and confidently move forward in the direction of your dreams.
Before I left for Hawaii on a 2 week exploratory trip in January, Spirit kept dropping this term into my mind: “Risk Quotient.” I’d hear it several times a day out of nowhere. It was a perplexing, yet exciting time because I didn’t know what I was heading into during the 16 day trip. All I knew was that I wanted to learn about the island, meet people, make business connections, find housing, and start working at my new office in Hilo, HI. Pieces of the trip had come together, but only a few general ones like AirBnb rentals and a rental car set up.
“Risk Quotient.” There it was again. I could feel the Universe bringing awareness to this concept more and more. What did I know for certain? What did I project and expect would happen? And what was I willing to take action on based on this knowledge and perceived knowledge? That was my Risk Quotient. With the amount of planning that I did, honestly, through normal lenses of evaluation, that trip wasn’t the best use of time, money, and energy. Probably not a great RQ score. However….that was through normal lenses. Fortunately, for me, I’m not interested in normal evaluations or projections of what my Risk Quotient is. Fortunately for me, I’m deeply interested in what my Spiritual Risk Quotient is.
Months before the trip I had begun to seek spiritual guidance about my trip. During meditation I saw images of the trip happening. While connecting with Spirit, I was assured that I would be guided to a unique living situation north of Waimea, HI. Spirit told me that I couldn’t find this housing online. I had already been guided to sign an agreement to work out of Hilo Natural Health Clinic (http://www.hilonaturalhealth.com/) and that would mean I needed a nanny to help me with my children. I knew it would be provided because my SRQ is stunning. 🙂 During my meditation, I was shown I would undergo spiritual opposition through the trip, but that a certain powerful young woman would help protect me. My guidance also told me to rent a house with three beds for the second week for some reason, though I only was traveling with one person that week.
Next, I received a BodyTalk session from the brilliant and beautiful Vanessa Wright, based out of CA. During the session, she helped my body and mind prepare for the transformation during and potential challenges of the trip. She told me to ground my energy often and use a grounding blend of essential oils daily. Another piece of information that came up was that I would need to follow my own intuition and go my own way, even separating from my travel companion from time to time. All the spiritual guidance, and healing work, coupled with my general knowledge, plans, and my confidence in the goodness of the Universe created my Spiritual Risk Quotient.
Apparently it was a pretty dang good quotient because the trip came together in the end like pure magic! Two hours after signing the agreement with Hilo Natural Health Clinic, I got a call from a woman 3 hours away who had been meditating that morning and seen she needed to quit her job, move to Tri-cities, and become a nanny. Then she saw my face appear in front of her. She was aware of who I was because she had received BodyTalk sessions from me previously, so she thought that perhaps she needed another session. When she called, I told her that it wasn’t for a session that she saw my face, but that it was that I needed a nanny! She moved in a few days before I flew out! My SRQ told me to sign the agreement and THEN the nanny would appear, and that is how it worked. I bow in gratitude to the gentle and sweet soul that this woman is. She has been a gift and light to my children and home. Risk never felt so good as it does right now.
When I originally read on RQ, it said confidence is a major player in having a good Risk Quotient. If you are too confident or not confident enough, your overall RQ will suffer. The confidence that I gained by going forward with my spiritual guidance as my strong suit was one of the gifts of the trip. I trust myself and Spirit more than ever now. Did everything go smoothly? No, in fact, there were some pretty difficult moments. But in those moments, I remembered what I knew, what I had been shown and I then took the next calculated risk. Each time, my SRQ kicked in, I advanced forward with exponential success!
What were some of the outcomes of the trip? I learned valuable lessons about the culture, spiritual practices, and history of the Big Island of Hawaii from my amazing travel companion/tour guide who lived there previously. At the end of week one of the trip, I separated from my travel companion in a sudden moment of inspiration that told me to do a travel companion swap! It was truly Reality TV-worthy! I had met two other travelers on the island who were several days into their trip and not getting along well, so I suggested that we swap companions and I spend several days with a lady I didn’t know barely anything about. We sent the other two off to explore the Waipio Valley while we did some relaxing and self care in the town of Honoka’a on the north side of the island.
During a pedicure at Aloha Girls Nails the next day, the owner of the salon listened to my stories of looking for housing on the island and of my healing work. She suddenly remembered her friend who was looking for someone just like me to rent their apartment attached to her home. Before I knew it, a dialed phone was put up to my ear and I was talking to the sweetest voice I ever heard in Hawaii. This woman was not advertising her rental to the public so I would have had to meet a friend who knew about it. The next day, I went and toured the apartment which is perfect for my transition months to the island. She only asked that I leave a $50 deposit down and I could take as long as I needed before arriving. She and another woman there are both healers and trained in spirituality over many years. They are beautiful souls. It was truly a unique living situation just north of Waimea….
When the two men returned from the jungle, the new travel companion had decided to continue on with us into the second week. Thus, the need for the third bed presented itself. Thanks for the heads up Spirit! I was so glad this friendly traveler could join us seeing as he had great knowledge and experience on the island to share with me as well.
As I had been warned, during the entire trip, the need for spiritual protection was a theme. I did have to ground and apply essential oils daily for grounding. Also, the day I arrived, I had met a gifted healer in Kailua-Kona, HI whom I had heard about. Her name is Jessica Lazor, a transpersonal guide and healer who can be found at http://www.spiritharmonies.com. I also met with her the day I left. Later, when reading back in my journal, I was reminded how Spirit had promised me that this woman would wrap me up in her aura of protection during the trip. She taught me several practical energy balancing and protection practices over the phone since that time and has been a valuable part of my growth. Wow.
Like I said, risk never felt so good as it does right now. The rewards keep pouring forth. I hope my stories and sharing inspire you to amp up your SQR. Please share your recent risks and successes below in the Comments.
Almost two years ago, I sat down to do some internal work within myself concerning my business. My favorite tool for this type of visualization and manifestation is called Mindscape. It utilizes breathing, relaxing, and slowing down the brain in order to align within and activate all the subtle senses. With those senses active, I can often see things very clearly.
In my mind, I immediately was shown a healing center in Hawaii where I was teaching people how to self heal and heal their families. I saw beautiful grounds, a retreat center, and saw myself doing BodyTalk sessions there. I had never planned on going to Hawaii at that time, so I thought that was interesting. And then I proceeded to move into the next week of my life, not imagining that things would start changing from that point forward.
Two days later, I met and quickly formed a business partnership with a local Occupational Therapist interested in the alternative approaches to Autism I was presenting at a class. Within a few months, we had opened a healing center involving 3 businesses under one roof. On the way to a planning meeting, my highly sensitive, deeply connected daughter with Asperger’s asked, “What is the name of the building?” I told her we didn’t have a name and she quickly informed me that building was to be called,”The Healing House.” And so it was! Over the next year and a half, thousands of people moved through The Healing House to receive education, healing, therapy, and natural health products. It was a massive success and still today is beautifully serving the community.
As my time at the Healing House came to a close, I began to receive clear and specific guidance in my spirit that the next step was to move to Hawaii and begin the next phase of what I had originally seen. Meanwhile, my business would be run from home and while I did distance sessions with clients. Just as I was told, the next steps to Hawaii were lining up.
One of the features of Mindscape is a calendar tool. When I would ask to see when the healing center would begin I kept seeing Oct. 2016. I can promise you, that when it came to be early October and I had no prospects of a healing center, I was feeling defeated. And then Spirit whispered…..as Spirit always will when we are finally ready to listen…..”Go take BreakThrough.” What?! BreakThrough is a personal growth workshop I never wanted to take. I hadn’t really ever looked into it and because I knew I would make excuses if I did, I immediately looked online for the closest class and booked it before I could talk myself out of it. The class was in 2 weeks in Laguna Beach, CA. I booked my flight and decided to make it a total retreat for myself and to visit CA friends nearby while I was at it.
Little did I know what Spirit was lining up! As we began to introduce ourselves on Day 1, the lady next to me explained how she had recently felt the burning desire to purchase land and a building in Hawaii for a healing place where some unknown BodyTalk practitioner would come work at. In fact, the building and land known locally as “The Place of Light” would be purchased in the following weeks, right on time! Then I introduced myself as a BodyTalk practitioner who just sold her home and was ready to leave for some unknown healing place in Hawaii!! My new friend and I had just found the missing link to our visions. It was us! A weight of unnecessary worry left me and I relaxed knowing, I am so crazy that I’m the sanest person I’ve ever met.
We are not guided by Spirit so that we will fail or be seen as a fool. We are guided so that we will build on spiritual foundations with spiritual seeds and the blessings of spiritual fruit that will come from it. What I have learned is that this vision of a healing center is not mine. It is God’s vision that I get to be part of and thus, it will create itself. It drew in a family from California willing to answer the call of Spirit. It drew in 3 other practitioners already and several others waiting in the wings to arrive right in time when they are needed. In reality, we are the Mindscape of God, the manifestations of his inner desires. We are the thoughts of God, and He is a master Creator. I am humbled and grateful that His hand is guiding me to the Place of Light. I have no doubt that I am in for the adventure of a lifetime and that its only going to get more and more interesting. I’ve noticed my sessions are getting more powerful and I can feel myself being prepared to do a great healing work for this world. It’s incredibly fascinating to watch, so you can follow me on this blog and Facebook to witness the unfolding of this vision. I love the quote, “We may not know what the future holds, but we know who holds the future.” All is well and in Divine order.
Blessings of Light and Peace,
It’s confession time. It’s time I admit that I’m a liar. A fraud. A fake. It’s time I come into the light.
The night this picture was taken, I asked my daughter to pose for a pic by the river. She shot her finger up, pointing with her power stance to the heavens. She was pointing the way and it impressed me so much, I still feel its power.
When I realized recently that I’ve been in the dark, I knew there was just one way for me to go, and like Noelle’s inspiring pose, that way is straight up, speeding at a thousand miles an hour, right into the light. So, I’m heading that way right now, blazing through fears, shooting past my phobias, and landing in a bright beautiful new place. It is place I call honesty, truth, openness, ownership and empowerment. It’s the true place of healing.
What have I been lying about?
I have lied about who I am my entire life, and then been mad that no one understands me.
I’ve played small, then complained about my life being unsatisfying.
I have thrown myself under the bus to try and make others comfortable, then gossiped about their bad behavior to me.
I’ve acted powerless, then been mad at those who pushed me down. They were just showing me how to get up and STAND.
I’ve pretended to know the truth of who I am when the truth was screaming at me, “You were made for more than this!” Then I’d judge those who lived “mediocre” lives.
I’ve stuffed myself into boxes that limit my life and suffocate me until I had to blame others for “hurting me.” THAT WAS WRONG.
I judged people. I pointed my finger and accused family and friends of this, that, or the other thing, when the only reason I was being shown it, was to teach me who I am and who I am not.
God was so good to open my eyes and just as He would, I’d slam them shut from the BLINDING LIGHT. Back and forth from light to dark I’d dance, shifting blame, spinning stories, skipping details.
And then I had a breakthrough. A realization: It’s all me.
downloading. . . . . downloading. . . .downloading. . . . . .
It’s all me. Yes, all those people and events were unconsciously created by me. That’s how it works! Yes, all of them.
Confession is cleansing. Forgiveness is even more cleansing. I confess I was wrong about you. I forgive myself. I am set free.
As I see the outer world coming into clarity, it is there to reflect my inner world. It is my gift to witness. It is my gift to be in the dark, so that as I come into the light, it is more glorious than I imagined.
I bow to the Creator who designed this life so brilliantly and completely. This journey to enlightenment is rich with wonder. It takes me deep into humility. It takes me higher into the light.
Blessings on your path to the light,
This sacred space of a blog has been created to share from my soul. Trust me, that is no small thing. In fact, the experiences and truths I will be sharing with you are often deeply troubling to my own spirit, yet fascinating to my mind, and still overwhelming to my heart. From this raw, authentic place of seeing deeply into the Universe and into the heart of God, I will share.
Many years ago, I began the process of turning into Light. Dropping out this world and receiving another into my Being. I experience such bliss and awe of the Light that I have been unable to speak of it to most people in my life, except for the few who are going through the Ascension process themselves, and they have affirmed that they are right there with me. Many of my clients receiving BodyTalk sessions are doing so to maintain balance through the dramatic shifts in consciousness they are having. Others, who are friends, meet with me for deep discussions and co-coaching for the purpose of piecing together this powerful process of becoming Enlightened.
If you are going through the enlightenment process and becoming One with God, One with All, One with the Light, then you will enjoy this blog. I will be able to bring you to greater awareness and freedom within your Being. If you aren’t, it will sound like, “BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH….” because I’m speaking another language.
My intention in the writing of this blog is to support the creation of a healthy movement towards Radical Enlightenment. I am creating this term to mean: FULL ENGAGEMENT in the process of becoming One with God.
These times we live in call for great awakening which requires deep healing for the soul. I’ve gone deep within my soul, deep into things that did not fit into my paradigms as a traditional Christian. One of my favorite paradigm shattering experiences was to have angels take me back to my past lives and teach me wisdom from them and how to heal them within myself so that this life will not be a bad repeat. I had to deal with the realization that not everything is spelled out for us in the Bible! Since the teacher is standing right here, fully engaged with me, I can surrender to His LIVE teaching. My hands on learning has been phenomenal and now dovetails nicely with the core truths I always knew of God.
At first, my awareness felt isolating. What I have come to realize though, is that I am not alone in being a conduit for the Creator, a servant of Spirit, an intuitive interpreter, a bridge for both worlds, a translator of truth, the hands for Heaven, an enlightened Empath…(I could go on, I really like words, but I think you get the point.) There are hundreds of thousands of you out there standing as lights and shining beautifully.
Last Spring, I took this picture near the edge of the Clark Fork River in Missoula, Montana. This picture catches my attention of the symbolic nature of who I am as a bridge between the two worlds of spirit and matter. I stand in between, receiving information, healing, Divine flow and connection. Sometimes I step back into the human side and act like an idiot. Ha! I am so glad there is forgiveness and love for me always.
Yeshua, who we call “Jesus Christ” means “God is Salvation.” He is an Ascended man who stands fully in His Divinity. He self resurrected as a Pheonix-like feat of victory over death. As a proxy for us, his life energies can be applied to us for healing and enlightenment. Salvation and Enlightenment are one and the same movement towards the Light. Yeshua held the space as a bridge and formed a way for all to follow His pattern as a Divine being in a human container.
The consciousness that Christ brought into this realm is ever expanding into my Being. I have mediated for years on these concepts. I have attended 2 Bible Schools, was a missionary with a non-profit for 10 years, taught Sunday School, taught Bible classes, built churches in South America, directed Bible camps, and joined every church I could. And then one day, I walked into the Light. I stopped doing and started Being. There was nothing wrong with what I was doing, in fact, it was quite successful. I had graduated, as dear friend explained to me. It had worked, so I ventured onward from the programs with Christ as Guide.
The New Testament quote, “Christ in you, the hope of glory” is ringing in my ears as I write. The Shekinah glory, the Light of God, the Presence is made manifest in us through the consciousness of Christ. He showed the way, the truth, the Life, He showed how to be One with the Light, and with the Father. (Side note: He highly criticized religion and never intended on one being made in His name….just sayin’,)
I am a follower of the Divine Spirit or simply, “Spirit”. You can call it the Holy Spirit, God, Christ Consciousness, Jesus, Angels, Ascended Master’s, or the Higher Self, but whatever we call it, it is the Divine Spirit speaking, teaching, and guiding me. It’s from the Source of Light, so sometimes I refer to it as “Source.” When I say “The Universe” I am meaning the entire Living Creation and the system of Life that the Creator made. It is intelligent, but I don’t see it as the same as the Creator itself. This is how I see it at this moment which can always expand and shift. My radical enlightenment, my full engagement in the process of becoming One with God, will be ongoing. My only promise is that I will be honest as I transform and learn. May you have that joy also!
And now, onward, friends! Let us go Into the Light,